A year ago I was still getting used to the idea of being pregnant, being that it took so long to get to that point I had some trouble getting used to it. It's wierd to think back now to the points before we finally managed to get pregnant and realize how I was trying to shut myself off from the world, I really was very depressed.
In the past six months I cannot get over how much I have changed, Ive lost weight, I go out and I CARE about what I look like. The days of sitting in my pjs (maybe because thats all that fit?) are over! I love being outside and going and DOING things with my kids. I feel bad a bit about this but I attribute all of these changes to Grace. She is the perfect baby and she just melted away all the nastiness I had brewing from the years since Cameron was born.
I just went into work and asked for more shifts so that we can hopefully buy a new house and rent out ours sometime next year. I am hoping to start some courses to get a degree in October (money permitting), I am actually DOING things! I feel like I fell into a black hole after Cameron was born and it just got worse and worse, don't get me wrong I love the kid but I just wasn't in a good place and Grace has made all of that go away.